Antipsychotics or multivitamins?

Man..so now so many of my coworkers know that I don’t even care to count. Manager, too. Fuck my life, I had a mental breakdown on Sunday night and had to have boyfriend pick me up and get me ice cream and snuggle me until I didn’t feel like ripping my skin off or flipping my shit and running into the highway or something. fuck.

I need to fucking man up and handle it. This is the job I picked am stuck with until the economy picks its fucking ass up so there’s really not much of an option, is there?

fuck my life i’m getting tears in my comfort food

ajkshdjkasFUCK YOU STRIKEOUT  I’m eating mac and cheese with worchestershire sauce. kind of waters down the mac and cheese but fuck it’s good. And naturally iced tea, gonna drink enough of this shit to make me piss clear again. HYDRATION. FUCK YEAH.

i wonder how many other trans strippers are out there. i need to make more of my shit sparkly, do a loooooot of art and reinvent a persona I can stick with, someone beautiful i can effortlessly slip into for work. that’s the only way i’m gonna be able to keep doing this. 

as long as i’m not thinking like myself, i can do it.. as long as my mind doesn’t catch up with my situation, i’ll be okay. I will be. i promise. i…hope.

~Rainbowboi

===> homestuck kissing gifs

jerrymojo2:

juneniocosu:

juneniocosu:

Arisu and June love each other very much <3

• Dirk and Jake

• Sollux and Karkat

• Dave and John

• John and Karkat

why is this on my dash again?

whatever lets throw this here

hot damn

alloftheyesplz

(via suguruxhiro)

Sparkles and status updates

I’m such a sucker for glittery shit. Sequins, metallic, whatever…I need more heels, and more shiny shit for work. There’s a lot more I need for work. But hey, made a hundred in the past two days that’s going to repay for boyfriend’s spending on doctor’s ap;p;ll;plpll…….pp fucking p key, had to rip it off the laptop keyboard and clean under it because the fucker wouldn’t press right. Anyway. Spending on doctor’s appointments, prescriptions and such. He’s getting better but his parents won’t be able to pay his bills this month if they have to pay for his medicine and such too.

…ugh. A lot of the time I look at myself and think “Felix, what the fuck are you doing here?” Some days I can fool myself into thinking it’s professional crossdressing but… There are a lot of illusions I deceive myself with to continue onward with this job. But then again, when even fucking MCDONALDS won’t hire, you don’t have much of a choice, right? Quitting this job would mean giving up, and I need to learn to be more assertive anyway…

I’m working again tomorrow, and then I have Saturday off. I’m looking forward to a day off, I think I’m finally gonna start forming a solid schedule and work Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, occasionally Saturday, and then Sunday. I’m supposed to be saving up for a car, my name change, etc…but I feel like none of that matters. Just like how I downright refuse to go to the doctor’s. I know what I have, it’l heal itself in time as long as I take care of myself..

My relationship with my parents has been getting worse. Random fits of rage and depression, and I’m inclined to violence but honestly I’d sooner self-harm than hurt them. Just because they’re not equipped to deal with me (not many people, if anyone, are) doesn’t mean I should hate them. I just…need to leave their lives.

In other news, I’ve been reeled into Homestuck somehow. I guess my random screaming profanities and voice volume issues suit Karkat pretty well. -Shrug.- Seems kind of promising..and fun. A good exercise in body painting, too. Speaking of that, I need to get some UV reactive body paint for work, that would be a lot of fun! I could be Cortana, or Lilith from Borderlands…the possibilities are endless. I’d need a really good setting spray too though.

Meh…that’s enough for now, I suppose. I’ll update again soon, maybe with pictures or something! Anyway, buhbye for now.

~Reignbeau’s ass-bitch 

queerinnature:

I hate being told that because I an atheist and have no faith in a god or religion, that I obviously have no morals. Not true.

(Source: dreamingscrubs, via just-steffanie)

turn-ways:

a picture of daryl cosplaying with drawn-on freckles has opened my eyes to the striders-with-freckles headcanon deal and i like it

fuck this is a sexymotherfucker

fuckfuckFUCK 

(via suguruxhiro)

flashyredturk:

heres some shitty davecat

stridercaterday happened

shiraae:

kaikokim:

yaexrae:

whiskyoursoul:

rubyrubyrubyredux:

amixedreality:

roahnari:

“A bully called my friends and I “The Fruit basket.” We were inspired. Here are our uniforms for our school’s dodgeball tournament.”

Man, I’m all over Mangerine.

This is pretty fucking wicked, just saying.

Rawberry

You win everything ohmygod

……Slaughtermelon.

BROCONUT

I think I will call my friend this for now on

Bombegranate

BADASS.

headcrabz:

intensive-care-unit:

birdblog:

Raven Trapeze by Kitundu on Flickr.

raven pls

 why are birds so funny/cute

Oh god xD 

a-million-koreans:

so this happened

I think facedown Dave is my favorite

(Source: tahno-sexual)